Okay, I have deactivate my facebook, and I am so PROUD OF MYSELF for bertahan selama ni. Memang terasa oke betapa boringnya and betapa dah lamanya tidak meng-like status and commenting my friends' status let alone just viewing their and, ahemm *cough* beautiful strangers' pictures.
So, I feel a lil bit empty ya know. (Drama gila wtf)
And and just now I have thinking to make a formspring account just to know what people curious about me (if there's any people yang curious laaa kan ?)
I am afraid of kena cyberbullying telling me I should go die or fuck myself ke bunuh diri ke tikam diri sendiri ke or rot in hell ke,
SCARY MUCH OKEH !
No, laaa it's not like I'm saying semua orang love me just the way I am, I know mesti ada orang tak suka punya. Like hello, I am mulut jahat person oke (and sedang dalam process berubah, ahem) and not friendly in nature, and macam macam lah , so mesti ada yang tak puas hati punya, I know.
I afraid what if I am not ready to receive all the hurtful words and comments and questions yang controversy and what if tiba tiba diorang tanya about my pasts ?
Or or or, what if they ask something that only I know ? Something like what I did bla bla bla, and if I dont publish the questions yang diorang tanya, I still know that someone knew it, kan ? Faham tak ? Faham tak ?
I am easily distracted and easily stress and paranoid some more, what if I couldnt handle the stress ?
And I jadi budak yang murung je lepas ni ?
A psycho ?
A quiet person ?
Or I fake death and lepas tu buat identity baru ?
Or I'll make plastic surgery and pindah somewhere to start a new life ?
Woahhhhhh ! I really think this formspring thingy could affect me this much.
Hurm, I have to rethink this carefully and take many many other things into consideration. I dont want to be stress because of cyberbullying.
Okay, my hand started to hurt. I think I have carpal tunnel syndrome.