Of Anger and A Bit of Something Else

I used to be a very hot tempered person. I mean, I'm always angry. I'm mad at myself, at people around me, and sometimes I'm even mad at my bed. Talked about how ridiculous I could get. But things changed, and I am thankful that I am part of the changes, too. I'm not totally a good person now, or may I say I haven't reach that kind of zen yet, but I like the fact that I am happy.

Very happy indeed. Alhamdulillah.

Well, since I'm the kind of person who could get mad very easily, so I thought to myself that I should do something about it. Durh, clearly I have to do something about it cause being mad and angry, is never good. It does not do good neither to myself, nor to the people around me.

So I always find myself fondling the keyboard or my phone's keypad when I'm angry. Yes, I resort to writing or sometimes, reading when I'm mad. Reading good books could do you wonders. You should try it, if you haven't. If you don't know whether you're reading a good book or not, just read a book anyway. Books are always one of the best companies ever.

Well, the writing. Yeah. When I write, I feel good. No matter how bad my writing was, I don't care. All I wanna do is to punch my every anger to words. And I usually write it as a letter. Only that I don't post it. I would imagine telling the person I'm currently mad at of how mad I am at them. And somewhere along the writing, I'll found myself forgiving the person, and forgiving myself (sometimes the latter comes first) and it's good. It felt really good. 

Forgiving (people or yourself) is good. You should do it too, if you haven't.

So that's how I manage my anger lately. By channeling it to writing. It's good you know. Because sometimes when I read back the things that I've wrote, I'd find it very funny and ridiculous. It'd be a very good laugh for me somewhat in the future. And it could be a very good reminder for me to not to repeat the same mistakes again, or just don't do the same mistake like the person I was mad at did. Get me?

Tomorrow is gonna be the first day I'm working after the long holidays. And maybe tomorrow I'd drag myself to gym to do some running. Depends. I really like the result you know. I've told you about my pace, right? Yeah, that would be my motivation now, to keep my pace. Or better, to improve my pace.

Maybe I should tell you about my running program later. Till then, have a good day, have a good night.