saya buat ini bukan sebab saya cemburu Mimi Yana menjadi kanak-kanak dekan.

This blog, Insya Allah, will be put ON HIATUS starting from this moment until the end of May.

Saya akan bungkus incek lappy topless dan simpan dia baik-baik dalam almari.

Semuanya kerana saya baru sahaja sedar bahawasanya final exam saya cuma tinggal lagi DUA PULUH HARI dan saya perlu mula belajar dengan bersungguh-sungguh.

DUA PULUH HARI untuk final exam, bunyinya SANGAT MENAKUTKAN, oke.

So, for the meantime ;

♥ Tiada blog hopping.

♥ Tiada blog discovering.

♥ Tiada blog stalking.

♥ Tiada blog posting.

♥Tiada songs downloading.

♥Tiada ym-ing, dan tiada gtalk-ing.

Saya akan jauhkan diri dari incek lappy topless dan virus internet. Saya akan cuba untuk mengawal diri dari mereka ini.

Tapi, mungkin sekali-sekala saya akan datang melawat blog saya dan blog tertentu sekiranya saya dapat curi pinjam incek lappy Siti Rosma.

Kawan-kawan, tolong doakan saya berjaya dengan azam saya. Tolong juga doakan saya berjaya dalam final exam saya.

Mungkin saya akan kembali ke blog untuk post tentang Hari Ibu. MUNGKIN. Kita tunggu dan lihat.

sementara itu, GOOD LUCK, PEOPLE!!!

p/s : i am a critical internet addict, i HAVE to do this to HEAL MYSELF.

BUH-BOIYE!!!!!!

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episod terakhir pengembaraan bimbo fantastic!

PERHATIAN : entry ini sangat banyak gambar cantik! HAHAHAHA.

mimi yana memang fanatik dengan saya. beliau cuba sedaya upaya untuk mengusik saya.

cuba compare saya yang naive dengan siti rosma yang deceiving, anda percaya siapa lagi?

budak-budak liar yang tidak naive.

CONFESSION : pemandangan malam di Lumut memang sangat cantik. tapi, sebab hujan malam itu maka tak ramai orang. dan sebab banyak lelaki yang teruja melihat perempuan, membuatkan hajat kami untuk merayau-rayau terbantut.

boleh buat poster drama kan? saya watak utama mangsa kes cinta tiga segi, rosma sebagai kekasih yang malang, cik jah sebagai watak antagonis.

siapa yang paling naive? tentulah saya!

this picture explained everything. semua yang tertulis dalam gambar ini betul.

gambar ini cantik, kan? kan?

saya betul-betul nampak naive dalam gambar ini, kan? siti rosma, masih deceiving.

cuba teka siapa di sebelah saya? gambar ini sesuai untuk dijadikan invitation card untuk girls' night out selepas ini. muka saya memang muka commercial.

seperti yang anda dapat lihat, itulah wajah mimi yana yang super duper happy sebab cita-citanya untuk ke Lumut akhirnya berjaya. siap dapat bermalam lagi di Lumut.

seperti biasa, budak naive seperti saya juga yang menjadi mangsa. nak buat macam mana, nasib orang naive memang begini. tak mengapa, saya redha dengan ketentuan-Nya.

kami akhirnya membuat keputusan untuk tidur di Hotel Putra, Lumut. sebagai seorang yang mempunyai pemikiran yang naive, saya agak risau untuk ditidurkan tidur di situ kerana bimbang andai tiba-tiba ada serbuan dari Jabatan Agama Islam Perak untuk mencari pasangan-pasangan khalwat.

walaupun sebenarnya, kami semua perempuan. biasalah, pemikiran orang naive memang macam ini.

kami mula mengeluarkan barang-barang yang telah dibeli di Giant sebentar tadi. semuanya barang-barang budget yang sangatlah murah. berus gigi pun beli berus gigi yang enam batang, RM 2.79 sen.

berdarah gusi saya pakai berus gigi tu. gila keras. boleh buat berus kasut tahu.

dan, saya nak kongsi satu rahsia, sila berhati-hati dengan cik jah kerana dia boleh membuat anda menjadi mangsa pada bila-bila masa sahaja. saya sudah terkena sewaktu kami berdua-duaan di dalam bilik.

nasib baik saya tak diapa-apakan.

dan, malam di Lumut juga mengajar saya bahawa apabila kita hidup di zaman serba moden ini, lelaki juga akan menjadi semakin menakutkan dan membuatkan hidup perempuan lebih mencabar dan terasa seperti kembali hidup di zaman di mana adalah bahaya untuk perempuan keluar pada waktu malam even secara beramai-ramai.

sebab lelaki-lelaki ini ibaratnya singa lapar yang mencari mangsa sebab dah kebulur tak makan seminggu, dan Jaha Budak Kelantan versi kurang kacak,kurang seksi, dan kurang macho sememangnya wujud.

sungguh takut. kepada perempuan-perempuan di luar sana, sila jaga diri baek-baek.

penat berjalan-jalan di Lumut, kami ke Teluk Batik pula. nak mandi, tak bawak baju. lagipun, risau kulit kena sunburned. saya tak perlu tanning, saya memang dah tan sejak kecil lagi.

mimi yana perlu tanning. tapi kami tak mengendahkan permintaannya untuk tan diri sendiri. last-last dia merajuk.

mimi yana, kalau merajuk, lebih kurang macam ni. tapi, bak kata siti rosma, mimi yana posing macam nak masuk ruangan berkenalan dalam majalah MANGGA.

kami pulang ke UTP pada jam 3 petang, lebih kurang. 24 jam kami merayau dan merayap. sedangkan pada hari rabu, kami ada test Kimia. well, kanak-kanak hedonist macam kami ni memang melampau.

anddd, kepada kamu yang membaca ni, sila diam-diam oke. parents kami tak tahu tentang perbuatan kami. kalau tiba-tiba rasa nak jadi part of our family, sila kunci mulut.

kalau nak rasa silent treatment dari budak naive, sila lah beritahu.

tapi, jangan lah. kita diam-diam oke. kita kawan kan? tak kan tak kesian dengan budak naive macam saya ni kut?

kepada the bimbos yang lain, yang tak dapat join, maaflah ye. sila jangan salahkan saya. saya ni naive, tak tahu apa-apa. rancangan ini rancangan mengejut. lain kali, kita plan baik-baik, kasi cantekkkk punya, kita terjah Genting. nak?

kut lah jadi Final Destination 3 kat situ. HAHAHA. okay, that's not funny. that is super scary. yeah, i know.

dengan ini, saya melabuhkan tirai kisah pengembaraan bimbo ke Lumut.

casting ; mimi yana as mimi yana, siti rosma as siti rosma, cik jah as cik jah, saya as budak naive, incik misteri as ketua pasukan penyelamat, adik perempuan incik misteri as adik ketua pasukan penyelamat, and farah dyana as bimbo kecewa yang tak dapat ikut.

buh-boiye!!

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kali ini bukan bukti, tapi kebenaran. cerita ini hampir menemui penamatnya.

hajat mimi yana hendak berfoya-foya di Lumut tidak kesampaian apabila ketua bantuan keselamatan kami telah tersalah mem'budget' masa dan membuatkan kami sampai lima minit lambat dari masa tayangan.

LIMA MINIT OKE.

jadi, jangan tanya kami apa yang terjadi pada lima minit pertama cerita JANGAN TEGUR tu sebab sumpah kami tak tahu apa-apa. masuk je cerita dah mula ditayangkan. dan, ada mayat di tengah sambil orang baca Yasin and nadia mustafa sedang menangis teresak-esak macam ada orang mati (refer to mayat).

ha, kan dah tak saspen.

dan di dalam panggung itu, baru saya tahu yang mimi yana sebenarnya seorang yang sangat fragile walaupun muka dia macam garang and ala ala gaya mak tiri.

saya yang naive lagi baik hati ini sentiasa duduk bersama mimi yana untuk menenangkan beliau dan memberitahu beliau tentang apa yang telah terjadi dan akan terjadi seperti "hantu alert!" "hantu alert!" (lagi) dan "hantu alert!" (dan lagi).

semua kerana mimi yana telah menutup mata dan enggan menonton cerita tersebut. ataupun apabila saya, dengan naifnya secara excited memberitahu ;

"mimi, hantu dah nak keluar! ready untuk jerit!!!" dan mimi yana akan memberi reaksi,
"mana dia? mana dia?" sambil cermin matanya diletakkan di dahi. mimi yana sungguh funny orangnya.

siti rosma pula duduk di tepi hujung sebelah kanan bersama cik jah menggeleng-gelengkan kepala melihat mimi yana membuli saya. tak mengapa siti rosma, saya rela.

PROMOSI : panggung wayang di Setiawan itu menyediakan bertih jagung yang SANGAT SANGAT SEDAP RASA LEMAK MANIS DISUKAI RAMAI dan membuatkan saya dan mimi yana berangan andai kami duduk di Setiawan, pasti kami akan singgah di panggung itu untuk membeli bertih jagung semata-mata. SILA BAYANGKAN BETAPA SEDAPNYA BERTIH JAGUNG tersebut. dan SILA RASA JELES sebab anda tak dapat rasa. HAHAHAHA.

selepas sahaja habis menonton wayang, saya dibawa oleh kanak-kanak liar ini bersama dengan ketua bantuan keselamatan bersama adik perempuan beliau untuk makan di Kopitiam.

kami enam orang, tetapi duduk di tempat makan untuk empat orang. makanya, saya tersepit di hujung. kasihan saya. mentang-mentang lah saya naive.

pose budak naive yang cuba ditiru oleh cik jah dan mimi yana. mereka ingat boleh deceive orang untuk percaya yang mereka juga naive seperti saya. (muka saya yang paling naive, as you can see).

sewaktu makan, siti rosma menyuarakan ketakutannya untuk memandu di waktu malam memandangkan sudah pukul lapan ketika itu.

ini semua penangan cerita JANGAN TEGUR sebab ada scene suami dia mati atas kereta. (again, hilang suspend) saya pun tak tahu kenapa siti rosma nak takut sebab dia bukan dah kahwin pun.

tapi, sebagai budak naive, saya iyakan sahajalah ketakutan beliau itu dan bersetuju untuk tidak balik. mimi yana dan cik jah dah senyum lebar dah.

PERSOALANNYA DI SINI : DIMANAKAH HENDAK KAMI TINGGAL SEKARANG?

anda tahu siapa antagonis dalam cerita ini kan? maka, mimi yana dengan terujanya berkata ;

"LUMUTTTTT!!!"


dan bermulalah pengembaraan kami yang sebenarnya...

[sambung next post oke..]

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bukti saya budak naive yang innocent dan tidak tahu apa-apa. [part II]

"rosma, you tahu tak sebenarnya jalan nak ke panggung wayang ni?" saya bertanya kepada siti rosma. wajah beliau sudah menunjukkan kerisauan.

cik jah di belakang tidak menunjukkan sebarang reaksi. manakala, mimi yana pula berwajah gembira kerana cita-citanya untuk berjalan-jalan ke Lumut bakal menjadi kenyataan.

"errr...i tak ingat jalan lah. sekejap, nanti i tanya orang,"

saya sudah mula takut. segala macam perkara tidak baik berlegar-legar di kotak pemikiran saya. bagaimanalah saya yang naive ni boleh bersahabat dengan mereka ini.

OH TUHAN, selamatkan kami.

tidak beberapa lama kemudian, siti rosma memakirkan keretanya di hadapan al-Ikhsan Manjung. saya yang gelisah dan tidak sedap hati terus bertanya kepada siti rosma tentang hala tuju kami selepas ini,

"you jangan risau, i dah panggil pasukan bantuan keselamatan. kita akan selamat, belle" siti rosma cuba meng'assure' saya.

saya pandang mata siti rosma dan kemudian saya mengalihkan pandangan ke luar. hujan masih rintik-rintik. kemudian, saya mengambil blotter clean and clear untuk membuang minyak.

walaupun saya risau, tapi penampilan mesti kena jaga jugak. rugi saya tak bawak bedak dengan eyeliner, kalau tak boleh touch up. nasib baik ada lip balm.

tiba-tiba ada suara nyaring dari tempat duduk belakang,

"wehhh, jom ah ambik gambar!!" mimi yana, seperti biasa, akan mengajak kami berbuat benda yang tak sepatutnya, di saat-saat genting.

boleh nampak tak wajah naive saya kalau nak dibandingkan dengan wajah cheeky mimi yana, dan wajah naughty cik jah? oh, jangan terpedaya dengan muka siti rosma. you know, as the saying goes, looks can be very deceiving. sama lah macam siti rosma ni.

saya memang naive.

tidak beberapa lama kemudian, pasukan keselamatan pun tiba. mereka membantu menunjukkan jalan dan melindungi kami ketika membeli tiket di panggung wayang tersebut.

kami sepakat ingin menonton cerita "JANGAN TEGUR". sungguh mencabar menonton cerita hantu di waktu asar. jam menunjukkan pukul empat setengah petang.

wayang start pukul lima petang.

"apa kata kita pergi ambil gambar di studio? mesti best!" saya yang naive memberi cadangan yang naive.

mereka memandang saya dengan pandangan disgust. saya malu sendiri.

"kita pergi Lumut jom. sepuluh minit je dari sini," ketua pasukan penyelamat memberi cadangan.

saya pandang wajah gembira mimi yana yang seronok hajatnya untuk ke Lumut bakal terlaksana. saya mahu ambil gambar. saya tak mahu ke Lumut. tolonglah sesiapa dengar rintihan hati saya.

[bersambung lagi...]

rintihan hati ; i found the cure for my nightmares.

RM 105.00

RM 115.00

RM 140.00

they are irresistible, aite?


please, they have haunted my dreams. it is no longer peaceful at night.

tolong doakan saya, dan ibu bapa saya menjadi kaya. tolong doakan elaun Petronas saya menjadi lapan ratus ringgit sebulan, dengan itu boleh lah saya hapuskan mimpi ngeri saya ini.


please.

bukti saya budak naive yang innocent dan tidak tahu apa-apa.

kawan-kawan, saya ada satu kesah saya nak cerita pada anda semua. dan, dalam kesah ini saya merupakan mangsa keadaan yang tak tahu apa-apa.

anda kena ingat, saya ni naive.

hari sabtu yang lepas, cik roommate, iaitu siti rosma, belle fanatics, iaitu mimi yana, si kecik, iaitu cik jah, dan budak naive, iaitu saya telah keluar makan di usm.

kami tinggal berempat sahaja memandangkan rakan-rakan yang lain sedang sibuk dengan tanggungjawab mereka. jadi, kami yang tiada tanggungjawab ni terpaksa buat sesuatu untuk kelihatan bertanggungjawab.

iaitu, dengan memenuhi tanggungjawab sendiri ; isi perut sampai kembung.

tiba-tiba mimi yana teringat bahawa kami ada satu masalah besar yang kami lupa nak fikir. nasib baek teringat, kalau tidak, pasti tak akan dapat diselamatkan lagi keadaan.

masalah kami ; movie apa untuk ditonton bagi tayangan movie wajib untuk minggu ini.

kami semua perah otak untuk memberi idea movie apa yang hendak ditonton. dan cik rosma mengeluarkan idea supaya menonton HISTERIA. tapi masalahnya tak berjumpa pula kami dengan movie ini di DC++.

makanya, terpaksalah mencari kedai VCD cetak rompak yang berhampiran.

sayangnya, kami tak tahu di mana letaknya kedai VCD atau DVD di Sri Iskandar ni. dalam waktu yang sama, hujan turun renyai-renyai seakan-akan menangisi nasib malang kami berempat.

ketika berhenti di lampu trafik Bandar Seri Iskandar, mimi yana memberi cadangan;

"Jom cari kat Manjung? sambil tu boleh pergi Lumut, aku tak pernah pergi Lumut" mimi yana bersuara sambil bermuka sedih.

saya, siti rosma, dan cik jah yang tak sampai hati apabila melihat mimi yana berbuat muka 'cubaan menjadi humble' terus bersetuju untuk membawa mimi yana ke Manjung dengan niat mulia - mencari VCD untuk tayangan minggu ini.

saya ikut sahaja kehendak mereka. apakan daya, saya tak mampu melawan. saya lemah dan naive.

hujan yang tadinya cuma renyai-renyai, bertambah lebat dengan volume titisan hujan yang meningkat secara mendadak [setiap kali titisan hujan terkena cermin kereta, percikan akan menjadi sangat dahsyat dan bunyi yang dihasilkannya juga adalah di luar imaginasi manusia biasa] menjadikan perjalanan kami sangat adventurous.

dan, lagu-lagu yang berkumandang di radio, semuanya ada berkaitan dengan hujan ;
i. mad - ne-yo I know sometimes it's gonna rain,
ii. wake me up when september ends - greenday here comes the rain again
iii. neon - HUJAN

oke, nampaknya sekarang saya seperti wartawan pengulas album baru di surat khabar panca indera, Mingguan Malaysia.

ketika kami sampai ke Manjung, salah seorang dari kami teringat bahawa di Setiawan, ada sebuah panggung wayang. alang-alang menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan. alang-alang nak tengok movie, baik tengok kat wayang terus.

betul tak begitu? ini kata-kata tiga orang yang lain. saya suka tengok VCD sebab boleh rewind balik dan pause kalau tiba-tiba rasa mengantok.

lagipun, saya mana biasa dengan wayang ni semua. saya start tengok wayang pun waktu umur lima tahun. itu pun cerita SEMBILU. oke, mira shut up. pecah rahsia dulu minat awie.

kembali ke tema cerita kita - saya yang naive, ulang, NAIVE.

maka....

[bersambung di episod seterusnya, nantikan kemunculannya...]


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kita break up oke, saya sedang broke ni [ya, brokenhearted juga]

saya tak mahu putus asa, tapi saya tidak tahu lagi bagaimana caranya untuk saya memahami kamu.

saya tak faham kamu, dan kamu tak faham saya. saya berusaha merapatkan diri dan bermesra dengan kamu. tak lupa juga, saya cuba sedaya upaya untuk melayan kamu dengan baik.

cinta kita secara terpaksa, tapi saya belajar menerima.

cinta memang akan ada banyak ujian, dan saya dah lepas ujian pertama dengan jayanya. akhirnya awak dapat juga tempat di hati saya, setelah banyak kali mencuba.

tapi, saya tak sangka itu semua cuma pura-pura. awak dah pijak, lempar, remuk, bakar, patah, dan hancurkan hati saya sehancur-hancurnya.

sampai hati awak.


sudahlah, hujung sem ini saya akan pastikan kita akhirkan segala-galanya. jangan risau, memori kita akan saya simpan.



saya tak sabar tunggu waktu itu, sayang.





untuk : skandal-skandal ku, [incek chemiya, mistress fizikah, roman pICISan, tuan jurutera matematik, dan lady bee-ai]

oleh ; bimbo cerdas yang naif.

tarikh ; 15 april 2009
masa ; selepas ujian kimia yang mendebarkan.



tandatangan,
[surat ini menggunakan cetakan komputer, tiada tandatangan yang diperlukan]


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undescribable [rosma kata perkataaan ni wujud. saya percaya sebab saya naive]

OHMYGOD!

Puan Munawira my english tutor is superbly superb vogue the very the vass vava vooom

adorable lovable nice the most

kind hearted and,

THE BEST TUTOR ONE COULD ASK FOR!

saya sangat bersyukur dan berterima kaseh kerana menjadi tutee anda.

i love you,

(:

saya masih keliru kenapa perkataan undescribable di highlight oleh sang internet? wujud ke tak? rosma, saya tahu saya naif, tolong jangan buli saya.

ouh-kay. three hours screaming and mostly kerut dahi and making faces dengar MCs meraban.

mind you, entry sangat pasemboq campur segala macam. and bimbos were not in action last night. so, normal boring komplen komplen entry was produced. TARAAA!~ ;

my very first experience watching Euphonius quite mengecewakan.

1. the MCs sucks big time.
oke. they were consistently crapping and rambling stuffs and whatnots. and the climax of their nonsense-ness is waktu instrumental performance made by the two group, Morven and Crash n' Burn.

they supposed to use buzzer or any proper sounds even cerita Raja Lawak astro yang entah apa-apa tu guna bunyi ayam berkokok and sound like ohwhatthefuck lah kan but it is much much better dari the MCs yang terjerit-jerit ;

"hey, STOP! STOP! it should be only THREE MINUTES!! STOP!!"

so whatthefuck. HELLO! if i were on the stage confirm akan termelatah ;

"oh hello kau gila ke terjerit-jerit macam tu kat aku tak boleh cakap elok elok ke dol?!!!"

or please la politely say,

"okay, Morven. thank you. time's up."

much better kan? suppose kena ada audition untuk carik MCs cause kalau MCs sucks, where's the fun kan?

and, and, and, baju MCs tak cantik. tak bergaya tak macam MC. baju crowd lagi cantik cantik.

moralnya; LAIN KALI BUAT AUDITION DULU OKE!

2. the bands.
most of the songs tak boleh layan lah. you see bunkface? kalau perform macam tu, perghhhh! barulah TERBAEK!

sedih sedih sebab lagu semua kureng. woo woo T.T

at least kalau ada band ala-ala brit pop pun best kut. and the dressing, erm.. boleh kut.

suka keyboardist Morven punya style. woah!!

3. the crowds
is THE BEST. scream!! scream!! scream!!

woot! woot!!

4. the Eupho itself,
was dragging. banyak sangat orang nak menyanyi. Doc Mat lagi, Bunkface lagi, rektor lagi, the bands lagi.

suppose ; the bands perform, then rektor, then Doc Mat, then Bunkface. baru lah layan!

5. star-d perfomance

disappointing. not energetic enough. not edgy and tak berapa sharp sangat. zombie dance is wayy much much better!

cuba dance guna lagu boom boom pow pulak lepas ni. meletup punya!!

6. BUNKFACE
korang memang TERBAEK!! okay, the vocalist was like, COMEL gila! mata bulat tengok kiri kanan like sangat comel nak mampus! and we really enjoy screaming and screaming and screaming!!!

yaw!!

you guys saved the day!!

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over all,
i didn't know much about Eupho since it was my first time watching it. but budak UTP bagus bagus dalam muzik. wah! bagus!

but then, you know suppose buat lah format every band nyanyi ;
- one new song [karang sendiri]
- two lagu pilihan
- medley or satu lagu wajib yang every band kena nyanyi guna kreativiti sendiri. wah best tuu.

cadangan sahaja. hope next Eupho gonna be DAMN GEMPAK!


camera work malam tadi oke oke sahaja.
diane Crash n' Burn is SUPERBLY SUPERB! vanessa mae utp lah! woot! woot!


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no matter how bitchy i am, i want you to know that i love you.

since i was very young, my world always revolved around a very few special people. up until now, i only reserved few places for a very few special people to enter my small world.

because my world is so small that even a little damage could cause a massive destructions.

i always love my childhood. it is full of joy, laughter, and sometimes a very tragic comedy. and i am always be the victim. but, it's okay. because i love them.

these two people, angah and dekla. they are the coolest siblings in a coolest family ever existed and i am very very thankful to God that i met them and let them enter my world and i could step into their world too.

i can't remember how we could get close but all i know is, they have been there since the day i was born and always been with me until i was fourteen (before i move to my new house and before angah flies to ukraine).

we have spent so much time together. i remember this one time, i was playing hide and seek with angah and we were running around the house and i remembered that we fell onto some cactus trees but i couldn't recall what was happening to us after we fell.

and few years back, my mom told me that i have been in emergency room because i fell on to the cactus trees. no wonder i couldn't recall what happened next because at that time, i was already fainted. and angah is with me.

then, i remembered that when i was in standard one, i was washing my shoes outside the house and there was angah, bored. so he asked me to play a game. the game is called mari-pura-pura-konon-konon-berudu-berudu-ini-adalah-pesalah-yang-akan-dihukum-mati.

i am not kidding you, he arranged all the tadpoles in a row and i be the king that gave him instructions to kill all those tadpoles that did wrong [what are their fault, that i don't know] and angah be the algojo and he put the tadpoles on a pisau lipat yang tiga puluh sen tu and SNAP! the tadpoles is divided into two.

it was tragic, but it is fun. dekla was very mad when she knew that we were killing the tadpoles. dekla is an environmentalist.

talking about dekla, she is the most beautiful girl i have ever met. she has a very long and thick eyelashes, with a big round black eyes, a nice trim eyebrows, a soft, curly, long hair, model-figure body, an oblong shape face, full pouty small lips, and a nose like a hindustani. and her skin is so nice its neither dark or fair. just nice.

dekla is beautiful and a very kind-hearted person. we used to go to school together. i always love to listened to her story about her life, and her problems. she never be mad at me. she never complaints about how stubborn i am and she always been very patient and lovely towards me.

dekla taught me a lot of things about life and friendship, about boys, i always love her jokes. [angah and dekla are truly siblings because their jokes always could make me burst into a huge laughter]

there are a lot of things that we have done together. it is not enough for me to write it in here. they brightened my childhood, they make my childhood a great things to be remembered, they make me thankful for being me. and they are who made me into what i am now.

i remembered that everytime i was being scolded by my parents, i always wished that i was born in their family. that is how great their impacts in my life.

but, every good things have to come to an end, there were a few misunderstanding that lead to something else.

and it's all ended when my family moved out from the housing area (Well, it's not because of anything just that my parents bought a new house but pretty much it affected our relationship since we can't meet each other everyday like we always do)

i miss them dearly. i miss my childhood. they are my rainbows. it is almost five years that we have not spending time together, and i have not seen angah for almost six years since he has been in ukraine.

i heard that he is coming back for housemanship this september. angah is going to be a doctor!!

ouh, to Angah and Dekla i miss you guys dearly. i wish i could turn back the time and fix everything but i just can't.


anyway, you guys are always been my favourite memories.

to all my friends [the girlfriends in SMKDH you know who you are, the girlfriends in Beseri (marleya, sheda, and lee), and my girlfriends in UTP (you know who you are kan? including the coursemates)

people come and leave, to those who stays, i am very thankful that you guys are here being with me. i am just very thankful that i could know you in my life. i am very thankful that i met you guys. and i wanted you to know, that i love you with all my heart. once i let you in my life, you would always be there. always. forever and ever. despite my annoying attitude, my hurtful words, my overreacted reactions, i do really love you. you guys are my rainbow that coloured my life.

i had enough losing my favourite person and i don't want it to happen ever again. i would try to be nicer if it what it takes to make you guys stay.

i am very glad and thankful that you guys always accepted me the way i am and be patient with me.

please don't give up on me.


friends,
i love you and i thank you very much.

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my babe,

hey, rindu kamu lah,

si cantik.

happy birthday yang ke-sembilan belas tahun! (:

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this urge, to find the lost-me ; where are you, myself?

this few months, i have suffered a very critical identity crisis. i just felt that i don't even know myself anymore.

i've lost my self-esteem,
i've lost my identity,
i've lost myself.

and now i'm confused.

i just can't stop complaining, whining, and rambling nonsense stuff. i see things differently just to make myself felt better and hell, it didn't.

i couldn't blame PMS. shit, no one suffered hormonal for few months.

i've gone paranoia,
just wait for the time that i would gone mental.

euuwww~
nauzubillah.

ouh, i really need a getaway. i just wish that i have the guts and go somewhere all by myself.
take the risk, you know.
going to mall alone, relaxing at beach all by myself enjoying the scenery, or just have a little walk.

i wish i could walk in the rain. maybe it would make me feel better. i need to search for myself.

i have lost myself with being paranoia and all.

since the semester started i have this annoying feelings, the nausea, the ... ouh, i don't know the words.

if and only if i have the guts. and the weather would be okay in the evening, i would like to start with the lake.

wish i have the guts, and the weather is okay.

wish that luck is with me.

i have to search for myself. i need to search the inner me. i have this urge to find my inner-peace.

when anything, just anything couldn't relieved me, i need to turn back. i need to go to the basic.

oh GOD, i am searching for you.

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saya tak boleh tahan, saya terpaksa kutuk awak jugakkk!!!!

do you remember about my neighbor?

now, they have gone beyond the limit. my roommate and i are definitely can't wait to move out from our room.

last year i complained about the smell that revolved around our room. you know, the smelly smell of telur busuk yang busuk gila nak mampus that came from our neighbor's room.

maybe she really is saving her money or she just can't find any spa around tronoh or ipoh or just can't afford for a facial and hair treatment. so, she used the eggs for the alternatives.

by the way,i think she read my blog about my complaint of the smell of her little-home-made-disturbing spa.

and thank God, now the smell has gone.

BUT!!!

i think, she and her friend, who is also happened to be my next door floormate, have done another terrible thing that could rip my heart out.

they have gone DEAF!

they keep playing songs, mostly Rihanna songs (they used to play Chris Brown songs too, but after the abusing case, they haven't played his songs anymore. they really are a good royal fan of Rihanna. lucky you.) and some other singers, very loudly.

and now, they are crazy of Eminem.

thank God they are not a fan of FTSK, or else, my ears would have bleed as hell by now.

okay, i am a fan of Eminem too, and i dont even give any fuck about them playing the songs as it is their right to do so. but, if you keep on playing the songs like you want to do suicidal attempt by bursting out your eardrums, please don't even think to ask us to join you.

i love my ear, and my eardrum.

i am still young and i don't want to be deaf. i really trying hard to minimize the usage of the earphone so that i could preserve my hearing, but they both are seriously don't want me to do so.

arghhh!!

and my rommate, she couldn't even get to sleep since she the music is soooo loud that it really interrupt her afternoon and evening sleep.

how we could get enough sleep if things like this happened?

okay, to make things worse, they love to play the songs during azan or sometimes right after azan. often we don't realize that it was azan since Rihanna song, Rehab is always on the air.

ouh puh-lease!

and one of them really loves water so much that when she is washing her face at the sink, she opened the shower tab and let the water flow just like that.

dia batak air kut sebab tempat dia sangat famous dengan ketiadaan air. satu dunia tahu.

the other one pulak loves cooking very much that she always cook and i rarely see her eating at any cafe. i don't have any problems with the cooking but the smells are really quite disturbing especially she used lotsa onions!

and plus, the sink in the kitchen room at our floor always stuck with her remained veggies from the cooking and it also cause the sink to smell very stink and looks disgusting as it macam ada lendir lendir and macam ada kerak melekat dekat sinki.

sumpah disgusting nak mampus!

erghhhh!!!

i wish i could tell them straight to their face. shit oh shit they are big and look so damn strong and powerful.

kalau kena sepak, mahu bengkak pipi aku ni. silap-silap pertumbuhan gigi bongsu aku boleh terbantut!

oh!!!

sangat berharap next sem we would not be neighbour, or worse, i hope they are not my future rommate or else i am going to rent a house outside the campus.

sigh.

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lagi dua tahun kau dah boleh mengundi kan, ena?

hey you the girlfie in Sarawak,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

can't wait for the semester break. nak jumpa keluar jalan jalan peluk peluk makan makan.

if possible, let's go to somewhere far far away? not like far as far, but let's go somewhere with lots of joy and happiness? shopping, excellent scenery, great food, and you know, nice people?

ouh, that sounds like HEAVEN.

hey, i wish i could be there celebrating your birthday. partying and have lotsa fun with the other girlfriends.

oh!!

i miss you la babe. it's been like 10 years that we have been friends, aite? ouh!

kalau ada anak, mesti kita tengah sama-sama hantar anak pergi sekolah. and you be their teacher!

how sweet!~

babe, nanti jumpa ambil gambar banyak-banyak oke. i've got insufficient pictures of you and me. so, no pictures for the birthday post.

ouh, for the wish :
hope you would always be happy and cheerful
always healthy and wealthy (you are one of the most generous friend that i have. selalu ada banyak duit and kalau bayarkan apa-apa, jarang mintak bayar balik)
and success in whatever that you are doing.

also,
survive there!!

Raihana Afifa (4/2/2009 12:46:26 AM): yes darling?
mireya (4/2/2009 12:46:31 AM): awak tu nak jadi cekgu oke'
mireya (4/2/2009 12:46:45 AM): nanti nak bangun awal-awal kut
Raihana Afifa Roslan (4/2/2009 12:46:47 AM): tapi mak aku pukul 10 dah tido
Raihana Afifa Roslan (4/2/2009 12:46:56 AM): bangun pun mana ada awal sangat
mireya (4/2/2009 12:47:17 AM): tanya mak kau dulu waktu belajar
mireya (4/2/2009 12:47:24 AM): tidur pukul berapa?
Raihana Afifa Roslan (4/2/2009 12:47:58 AM): mak aku lagi la waktu belajar kena tidur awal
Raihana Afifa Roslan (4/2/2009 12:48:06 AM): dia kan mengandung waktu tu
Raihana Afifa Roslan (4/2/2009 12:48:08 AM): rehat kena cukup
mireya (4/2/2009 12:48:10 AM): haah
mireya (4/2/2009 12:48:19 AM): naseb baek kau tak kawen lagi ena
Raihana Afifa Roslan (4/2/2009 12:48:22 AM): kalau tak aku tak kuar sihat walafiat macam ni
Raihana Afifa Roslan (4/2/2009 12:48:22 AM): hehe
mireya (4/2/2009 12:48:36 AM): tak dapat bayang camne kau nak rehat nanti
mireya (4/2/2009 12:48:44 AM): baek bersyukur cepat
mireya (4/2/2009 12:48:51 AM): hakhakhak

SAYANG KAMU LAH, ENA!

nanti jadi cikgu untuk anak-anak tiri aku eh? LOL :p

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