dush dush dush tembakk!~

tag ini dari dyod lalala~

What is the relationship of you and him/her?
oh. dia coursemate saya! :)

Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
putih putih putih!
sudah ada booyfriend ke?
sama la spek kita! ;p
bijak pulak tuuu.
senyum :)

The most memorable things he/she had done for you.
makan di rumah beliau :)

The most memorable things he/she have said to you?
eyh, message tone kita sama lah! *time MAS. wah!*

If he/she become your lover, you will...
ehem. lesbian thingy. mesti gosip panas di utp!

If he/she become your enemy, you will...
uhhh. tak mahu tak mahu.

If he/she become your lover, he has to improve on...on his/her
tak perlu, saya terima kamu seadanya, dyod! ;p

If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...
sebab berebut chuck bass! hahaha. ;p tak mahu jadi musuh lah.

The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
nak buat loyar buruk and gelak gila dengan dia!

The overall impression of him/her is...
putih dan bijak.

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
saya fikir mereka rasa saya sombong dan susah didekati. try me people! ;)

The character of you for yourself is?
indifference.toya.distant.impossible.

On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
saya sangat tak serius dan smbil lewa. ^_^

The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
amira nabilla

For the people who likes you, say something about them.
- hahaha. you like me? auw! nak ngorat?~ *wink2* *mati la gedikk*

Ten people to tag:
1 deena
2 jah
3 earfun
4 naqeb
5 millia
6 elya
7 kusu
8 sekin
9 nuar
10 azry


who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
dia sedang dingorat oleh seorang jejaka, i think ;p

Is no. 3 a male or a female?
lelaki yang meletopp!

If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
good good. :p

How about no. 5 and 8?
none of them is a lesbo. tak boleh tak boleh.

What is no. 1 studying about?
eh kamu ict ke bis don?

Is no. 4 single?
rasanya masih belum berpunya :)

Say something about no. 6
she always happy happy and happy! kan? ;p

tag #2

tag ini dari aimanjafre. baru jumpa selepas empat bulan!

Nama nama timangan oleh orang tersayang
saya tak ada nama timangan T.T

Anda seorang yang....
indifference, tak serius, toya, sarcastic, gila, pemalas, sangat sambil lewa, drama queen.

Insan teristimewa.. describe apa yg membuatkan dia terlalu istimewa di mata anda..
sebab mereka, saya ada. :)
sebab mereka, saya gembira :)

Makanan Fevret
cokelat kitkat :)
ketam masak lemak! :)

Fevret kaler
oren. always oren :)

Fevret song
saya suka semua lagu hujan *saya cinta noh!* dan beberapa lagu lain.

Sikap yg membuatkan anda stress.
saya tak suka orang yang ada ciri ciri negatif saya. sebab saya tahu itu sangat annoying! ;p
and and and orang yang buat buat manja. huh!

3 benda yg mesti ada dlm handbag
duit. lipbalm. purse. minyak wangi

Kali terakhir anda menangis beria2.. napa?
tak pernah menangis beria ponn. tapi, saya akan menangis kalau tak dapat makanan yang saya nak ;p

Tag siapa?
tak mahu tag orang! ;p

marry me, marry me!

johnny depp is my kekaseh hati :)

i watched charlie and the chocolate factory.
and i fall in love again. for the nth time.

greedy augustus makes me hungry.
little charlie makes me thinks that i should be a better person.
the english girl makes me annoyed.
the little bitch irritates me.
the evil genius makes me wonder how nerd are super duper cool!

and here comes willy wonka,
who makes me think that i've found my mr perfect!

johnny depp, you're so hot!

kacak kacak kacak.

oh, kalau lah anda boyfriend saya!

uh-huh!

xoxo yes, i love you!

spotted!

almost every brightful engineering students look like a zombie on this peaceful saturday. are they having party last night?

i guess it's a no.

oh yeah, they're studying very hard for their killer paper, chemistry and engineering math! that's terrible.

they're all look like a zombie with a panda eyes!

who knows what's gonna happened on the exam hall?

seems like i hear wailing and some sorts of smiling on those happy handsome bautiful faces of the future engineers?

xoxo
yes, i love you.

tetibe rase nak jadi gossip girl

tak berbakat pulak

*sigh*

sayangness of mine!

this is my baby darling, sheda.
people, meet sheda. :)

today is sheda's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEDA!

i wish u :

1. always happy happy and happy.
2. you would get whatever you want, insyALLAH.
3. success in whatever you do.
4. GOD bless is with you always.

babe, even we are distance apart, i would always love you.
i would always miss you evethough i couldn't always hear your laugh, see your smile, and listen to all your luahan hati.
because you're my strength that i always hold on to
in every thick and thin during our time in Beseri.
i miss our time together.
really, really, really miss it.

happy 18th birthday SHEDA.

i love you.

saya telah ditembak!

put this logo in your blog oke, people!

2. add a link to the person who is shared it with you

irfan yang meletopp!

3. Nominate at least 7 other blog

nqb
jah yang kecikk
deena yang lawakk
dyod
tasha volkswagen
wawa
elya dah-lings!

4. Leave a message for your nominee on their blog

sudah siap!

i mish you much lah!

babes, tag masih ada sambungan.

Be Honest

Law and order

1) Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right NOW!.

2) DON’T change your clothes, DON’T fix your hair…just take a picture.

3) Post that picture with NO editing.

4) Post these instruction with your picture.

5) Tag 10 people to do this

sama macam orang-orang di atas.

TADAAAAA!!!~~

nih recent and the latest picture that i have.

masa study week. siapa siapa yang renduu dengan cik rosma, tatap lah wajah nih puas puas oke?

*cantekk kan irc kami? lalala~*

i am G-rated?

*G is for 'jiwang' ,isn't it?*

well, i was bored of listening to my songs in my beloved pinkish handset. i deleted some of my-used-to-be favourite songs and go bluetooth some new released *la sangat* songs from my friends.

oh.my.god!!!!

sorry for the overreacting reaction. well, drama queen lah katakan. ;p

i never realize that i am such a jiwang karat before!

i listened to crush, and i reminiscing my pasts, about my a-week-crush, who i never talked to even i have lost my feelings towards him now.

i listened to people under the drones by seven collar t-shirts, and i felt like i am full with emotion even the song only one minute and twenty seconds long! oh, how hebat penyanyi tu menyanyi dengan penuh perasaan!

then i listened to two minutes and two seconds song from m.jayzuan entitled selamat tinggal. again, i am full with emotion. this song reminds me to my late coursemate. *refer to my previous posts* i am sad!

then, just now i listened to tear drops on my guitar by taylor swift, okay, i know this song was ages ago, but still, oh, i feel like crying! *haha.i am sooo very over!*

hoho. where my soul pergi nih? jadi jiwang lah pulak kan? feeling merata-rata.

well, maybe my heart and soul need some pembaharuan. dah bosan agaknya.

kesian jiwa saya, saya pun tak faham dia. sekali sekala layan jiwang pun mahsyukk.

kenali diri anda.
jangan jadi macam saya.
iklan kemasyarakatan ini dibawakan oleh :
cik mireya da bomb

lagenda kesah cinta

"Love Story" - taylor swift

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.

Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, please don't go-
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.

We were both young when I first saw you.

***

i don't want a love story.

i don't want a romeo.

i don't want to be a juliet.

i want my own story.

i want an ordinary guy with an extraordinary behaviour.

a retard like aru or mat cepat, maybe.

only if it would happens one day.

long long long time to go.

p.s : kekaseh yang lari telah kembali. tapi kesah ini tidak direstui. she could be a juliet if she wants to. but she choosed to refused. :)

p.p.s : thanx mimi for the song!

post jiwang.

meleleh siot~

kekaseh yang lari.

he likes her. at least that was what he told her.

she?

indifference.

he asked her to teach him this and that. she said, "oke!"

so she taught him (at least this is what she wanted to believe).

her friends called that as a date. a date that was not really look like one.

she don't really teach him because she couldn't be close enough to him. she really want to be that close cause it would be easy for her to teach him and show him some important datas but, there are a few things that stopped her.

she couldn't really mention what it is. but, it sucks!

she make boring faces. it's not like she doesn't like him. but, she doesn't understand herself yet. maybe she likes him too, maybe not.

he is seriously not her type.

but her friends says that he looks nice and handsome.

so he is their type. not hers.

well, after that so-called-date and teaching, he never contacts her.

they seat for exam in exactly the same hall. he don't even wish her good luck.

she wished him.

maybe because she makes boring faces during that time and maybe he was offended.

well, he is a sensitive guy.

she is sorry if she offended him. too many times, she thinks.

she don't meant to. that was her.

no one could ever be able to love her, she thinks.

he should try harder, or at least never stop trying. but, he is only ordinary guy, ordinary human being who have feelings and he know when he was bored.

and she know he is already bored with her who never be serious.

she wish he know how to know her. don't understand her, enough to just know her nature.

well, it means he is not the guy she is looking for.

he have the guts, but not the effort, and he easily get bored and gives up.

it's not his fault that he is bored with her. not everyone could stand her.

well, she has ruined another chance to have a boyfriend.


THE END.

hey, i am a good neighbour!

kamu, saya tahu kamu suka telur. saya pun suka juga dengan telur. telur memang sangat sedap dimakan.

nampaknya kita boleh jadi kawan baek, kan?

tapi, saya sudah tak tahan lagi apabila kamu menggunakan telur itu untuk tujuan lain. saya tak tahu kamu guna telur itu untuk apa sebenarnya, tapi saya rasa, kamu tak makan telur itu, bukan?

sebab saya bau telur dari bilik kamu. kalau kamu makan, tak akan ada bau. betol tak?

kamu, telur tu bau sangat busuk.

sangat sangat sangat busuk.

setiap pagi, saya keluar bilik, mesti saya bau telur tu. saya dah tak tahan lagi. tolong lah jangan buat rawatan kosmetik telur tu di sini. kalau mahu buat pun, jangan lah bagi bau telur tu menusuk sangat.

saya tak tahan lah. pagi pagi lagi mood dah hilang bila bau busuk telur.

belum campur perkara-perkara lain yang kamu buat lagi.

tapi, kamu jiran saya. naseb baek sem ini sudah hampir berakhir. sengsara saya akan hilang tak lama lagi.

so long.

harap kita tak berjiran lagi next sem. amin!

yang jujur,

saya jiran yang baek.

kenapa saya kurang gemar ke irc?

well, irc stands for information resource centre. it is a library. which is a place to study, and gain information. yeah right, well people, you definitely not reading my blog just to know the meaning of irc. daa?

UTP irc impressed me with its technology *wuhuu!* the many many racks of books which sometimes doesn't make sense *catering? which engineering students or bis/ict students need this?* well, maybe for the sake of knowledge. okay, i got it!

the air-condition which is freezing like hell. watch out skinny! you guys are just gonna froze like a frozen food, so don't forget to bring your thick sweater and cardigans and blanket if possible so you won't freeze like jack in Titanic! oh, sorry, i am exeggerating here.

and oh, the internet connection there is heaven! go google, go youtube, go myspace, go go go!!!!!

well, despite all this advantages which i very very very like, there also some reasons why i don't like to be in irc.

1. i have to struggle to focus since i am very very observant person.

it's so hard to focus since there are many many handsome, cute, and beautiful geeks here. i like to watch those wannabe geeks who think they are cool enough when wearing all those skimpy clothing and declared themselves as a fashion followers and very up-to-date lah sangat. well, bro we all know you are geeks! stay nerd because nerds and geeks are hot, okay?!

2. there are too much of love sparkling everywhere.

when talking about dates, not only taman bunga is full of those lovebirds. in here, these lovebirds really love to study very very much *oh, i could see that* but when you are giggling and making proud faces like you are the only person on this very earth have a boyfriend/girlfriend, it's really make me sick and makes me lost my mood to study. especially to the boyfriend, who behaved like hero trying to protect their girlfriend whenever people are looking or making noises in front or behind them *i've been that 'people'*

p/s : boys here are proud to have their girls around since girls are very few in here. well, to that particular boyfriend, i hope your girlfriend ditch you!

3. sometimes, silence is no good.

i love to hear to some music and noises. since my earphone doesn't look like one anymore, whenever i wanted to hear to some music, i have to use speakerphone with the slowest volume which would automatically amplify themselves in the silence surrounding like one in the irc. and people would go "shh..shh..shh" oh, sorry people! my earphone rosak lah!

4. freezing in air-conditioning room makes me hungry.

i always find myself end up being hungry and desperate. up to an extend i crave for food that belongs to someone i don't even know! and due to my nature, i would just stare at the food like malnutrition children who was abused by the stepmother and look out for sympathy just for a byte of it. and of course, it does scared away the food owner! maybe they would think that i am psycho bulimic person who eat and puke after that. oh, what the heck?!

5. silence your phone.

i only do that in class. well, who wanted to attract attention with the noise of your message alert? yeah, i know you are a fan of [insert a band here], but you don't have to tell it to everybody by using the loudest volume of your ringing tone and annoyed everybody there. hello, we know that song and it is lame! hello, we know that you are so hot that everybody is texting you and trying to flirt with you, and hello, i know everybody is calling you for some-very-important reasons, but silent your phone, please? don't be an attention seeker, could you? hee. well, all of this applied to me. i hate silencing my phone! pffffttt.

p/s : sorry, showing off is my nature. ;p

well, what more i have to say? i only been in irc for a few times during this study week. :) yes, i do love the scenery of loving couples planning their future together, but sikit sikit dah la kan? irc also one of the reason i fall in love with utp back in educamp. sometimes we crave for something that we couldn't have (applied to all educamp candidates), and when you have it, you don't really appreciate it.

exam this monday.

good luck amira!!!

al-fatihah buat imad.

Al-fatihah to Muhammad Imaduddin bin Taelip.

today, i lost a friend. he is a friend of mine, a coursemate to be exact.

arwah is a very nice guy. he smiles a lot, like A LOT. he is very witty, funny, friendly, and warm. he gets along with people very well.

we are very shocked when we heard about his death. nobody would expect this news since he looked very healthy, and fit. plus, he was very very very young. eighteen years old. who knows, ALLAH loves him more than us do.

he died because of heart attack. from what i've heard, he'd been suffering heart disease for a very long time.

this evening, he was playing football with some of his friends, and out of blue, he passed out. his friends rushed him to the hospital, and we got the news that he was no longer with us.

my friend told me that this was the first time he wanted to play football. guess it was his last time, too.

you would always be remembered, Imad, mattdude.

may Allah bless you. rest in peace my dear friend.

goodbye.

AL-FATIHAH.

gossip, people!

attention : for this post, i have to use alphabet since i love alphabet that much just like deena said. right dear? :)

cik tiqa wasn't around. and i have to wait for a few minutes before i could enter the class since my lecturer was not around yet.

damn, i am bored.

so, i remembered about my [insert a subject here] test marks. i scored pretty good on the test though and it really made me feel good everytime i think about it. well, i only need eight more marks to have me scored full marks. and my benchmark, got one mark higher than me. oh, how i am so grateful!!

i smiled. alone. macam orang gila.

"hey, what do you get for your [insert subject]? you got the marks already, right?" T asked. smiling.
"yes, of course i got the marks already. it's pretty great," i grinned thoughtfully. oh, i love you marks!

T told me that T got almost full marks too. i couldn't mention the marks, but it was pretty high. i congratulated T upon the success. and still smiling when i think about my marks. thank you, Allah!

so, i continued to the class. and being very very very happy.

well, it was a very long time ago. well, not that long actually, just a forthnight ago, i think.

so, here is the coursework marks that everybody is dying to know. i checked on mine. well, i am not a top scorer, as expected. but thank God it wasn't that bad. Alhamdulillah.

i checked for other courses too and suddenly, i saw T's. ops! is that really T's marks? i checked again and again and again just to be sure.

T marks wasn't as high as T had told me. instead, T marks much much lower than that. i've calculated it. not even half.

i wonder. why on earth, T brags to me about the fake-so-called-low-marks that actually high enough to impressed me? and why on earth T lied to me at the first place??

i keep my mind positive. it must be because of the lecturer. he must have entered the number wrongly. pity T. i hope T realized that. it's coursework, okay?

***

well, people, this taste good, right? a delicous, juicy, fresh gossip.

i knew way too much about people dark secrets and lies. some might say that i should consider myself lucky to have found such ugly truth.

but it's really a burden to know such things.

cause i will gossips! like dayah said in her blog. girls like gossips, so do i.

yes, i like gossips very much. but, i don't want to bitch around. i have my own life and i am too busy with my own bussiness to feel annoyed with any act like that.

up to you to lie and disguise anything that you wanted to. because, i know you know that the truth is so frigging ugly to let the whole world know bout it, right?

and of course, i've lied too.

:)

saya awek kamu!

i am seriously a conservative person when it comes to relationship.

i am not the type of girl who mengorat guys dulu even i like to flirts very much. note : very, very much. auw! ;p

i repeatedly told my guy friends :

"auw! hensemnya! nak mengorat?" *wink2*

surely sounds very gedikk to most of you. but, this is how i joke around. please don't take it seriously. even most of the guys i met got confused at first time when i say those magic words, but believe me, when looking at the wild side of me, they know i was playing around with them.

no hard feelings.

when i really like someone, i couldn't control myself. of course, i wouldn't even dare to talk to him, to look at him, or even smile.

called me a snob, but hey baby, i like you!

of course i wouldn't say all those crappy words like "nak-mengorat-boleh?" thingy. cause, i could never dare to talk to my crush.

oho!

but, seriously, when it comes to how to tackle a girl. i really don't know how to be a-hard-to-get girl. it depends. sometimes, when i befriend with a guy, and he started to hint me that he likes me, and i acted indifference, boy, that means you are just a friend!

i think other girls would say the same too. when a girl consider you as a friend, it means, you really are THE FRIEND. fullstop.

but when i feel the vibes too, that would be the whole different story! usually, i would give hint that he has the chance.

but seldomly they got my hint. why? because i am seriously loves note : loves very vey much to play around. i look serious from my appeareance, but once you get to know me, i couldn't be serious at all.

so, he would consider me as just playing around with him. and gives up.

but, once you had me declared as yours. this comes my favourite part. i wouldn't act like one. yes, i am your girlfriend. but hey, my heart don't say so.

i am hardly to fall in love. oh, i forgot how it feels to be in love!

for me, being a girlfriend doesn't mean that your heart belongs to him. you still can flirts, finding another potential boyfriend, having fun with your girl and guy friends. you are who you are before and after your declaration.

only for the fact that you are bounded with the declaration, "i am your girlfriend and you are my boyfriend"

so, when it is to be serious? like seriously he has your heart?

when she got jealous, and mad, and angry seeing you with another girl and keep being curious about your every actions. at that time lads, she is yours!

oh, one could never tell a girl's heart. but lads,in case of relationship, the more she repels the more she's into you. some girls are egoistic. she won't show that she's into you even she's very very in love with you. even, at the first place, she's been very easy-to-get. for me, this kind of love is forever.

but, when she easily loves you even before this she kept playing hard-to-get, oh. what could i say? this kind of girl would leaves you for another man that haunt her.

but all this crappies are just my thoughts. because this is my opinions based on my experience. and i am sure there would be any other girls out there having the same thought like me.

plus, i am bored, and i felt like blogging. hoho.

end of crappy.

lalala :)

ps : post kali ini tiada motif.

motivation.

saya sangat bosan.
kenapa saya tak boleh tido nih?

oh, dan kenapa lah saya sangat malasss?
saya nak final minggu depan.
tapi saya malas nak belajar.

kenapa kamu malas, wahai perempuan?

rakan-rakan kamu sudah banyak yang dah habis study subjek-subjek susah.
kamu?
masih mengarut seorang diri.

saya harus berbuat sesuatu.
tapi, apakah?

amira, kuatkan semangat.
kamu kena belajar.
dapat pointer yang kacak, macho, dan menawan kalbu.
supaya ibu boleh tersenyum gembira.
dan ayah ketawa bangga.

kamu pon mesti bahagia melihat mereka.

amira,
bangun dari mimpi kamu.
jangan lalai, jangan leka.

study mira!

i heart u,

ibu ayah

i'd never gonna let u down :)

telur dan saya

i am hungry. so do my beloved rommate, cik rosma, and my crazyness friend, cik tiqa. we get ready to fill our perut yang buncit ni with the delicous food from usm cafe *yang suka cekik darah!*

even mahal. we have to eat jugak. no other choices. sob!

"makcik, kami nak mee bandung dua," cik rosma help me ordered. cik tiqa ordered kuey tiaw goreng.

"telur habis la dik."
"tak pe lah. layan je lah."

oh. so sad! mee bandung without telur? who eat mee bandung without telur? oh! cacatlah mee bandung kami nanti. saya sangat sedih. saya nak mee bandung dengan telur!

so, with the most disappointed heart *oh, i couldn't tell you how disappointed we were* we went to order our drinks. and then, we saw eggs! many many many eggs!

oh!

cik rosma told me to buy the telur and give it to mak cik kedai sebelah so that dia boleh letak telur tu dalam mee bandung kami.

what a great idea!

me : urm. telur tu telur mentah ke?
roti canai man : (gelak) mesti la telur mentah.

rosma and cik tiqa almost shouted at me because i asked the stupidest question in the world. *overrrr* telur mentah? what the heck? mesti lah orang buat roti canai dengan raw eggs kan? silly me. hee

me : urm. nak beli telur tu sebijik boleh?
roti canai man : (still gelak-gelak) nak offer berapa?
me : urm. tiga puluh sen?

and the conversation continued. but we don't buy the eggs.

and our mee bandung pun siap.

oh! it had eggs in it!
we are so happy, happy, happy.
our mee bandung tak cacat. ada telur.

ps : naseb baek tak beli telur. kalau tak malu je nak bagi kat mak cik tu. hahahaha.

makanan dengan telur,

memang sedap.

kan?

betina.

maybe i am a bitch after all.

what should i do? this is my nature. i can't change who i am. i've tried, but i failed. seriously. i tried so many times to be a nicer, sopan girl. it just don't work for me. it don't last long. maybe it works for some period of time. the longest, urm. five months. if it reached five months pon dah cukup impressive dah.

saya memang semulajadi jahat kot?

i talk, and my words hurt people.
i keep my mouth shut, and they called me a snob.
i laughed, and they called me loud.
i care bout my friends, dan mereka kata saya batu api.
i am happy, dan mereka kata saya gedik!

macam mana nak jadi baek dan lemah lembut macam perempuan biasa?
boleh ajar saya tak?

cause i am damn tired to care bout what people say. i am tired of collecting foes. i hardly found people that can suit my characters. it either me, or them.

i want friends. not foes. i had enough with the hate and all. i don't want to mess with people. but i always find myself in the middle of a fight. and i always be the one who start the fight. *believe me,i don't even realized it!* it always me be the one who look so wrong. and, and it really makes me look REALLY BAD.

kadang-kadang saya kasehan dengan diri saya.

people hate me for something that i didn't do. or sometimes because i am at the wrong time, wrong place. selalunya, saya memang malang.

i don't know what to do. i give up of changing myself. i better be the old mira. mira with laser mouth. mira with the bitch attitude. because, whoever i am. i am still mira. THE BAD MIRA. or MIRA THE BITCH. it's all the same, right?

it's either you love me, or you hate me.

mana satu pon, saya tak kesah. sebab saya adalah saya. agaknya saya memang tak ditakdirkan untuk nampak baek dihadapan umum.

even if i be nice to people, i still look bad. so, i better be bad.

so, people. yes, i am bad.
you play hard with me? i play harder.
you hate me? no, i dont hate you.
i love you even more.

hey kamu,

saya jahat tau.

jangan maen-maen dengan saya.

;p

saya tak bersalah!

he's not my boyfriend.
indeed, i don't have one.

i don't say bad things bout you.
why should i do that?
u are like my top 10 favourite person in this very utp.
why would i talk bad bout you??

well, in this case, you are soo wrong.
you made her did that.
please don't blame her.
she don't have no one else to turn to since she's a girl.

perempuan kan manusia yang lemah.

plus, she's been through a lot.
i mean A LOT .
and she just couldn't take it anymore.

she tried to protect you.
but she failed.
cause she loves him more than she loves you.

he is her boyfriend. you are only a new met friend.

what do you expect, then?

i tried to protect you too.
since i love you both equally.
i'm stuck between a favourite person, and a bestfriend.

i don't want to be blamed.
i have a new aim.
to make friends a lot.
enough with the enemies.
saya dah tak mampu deal dengan musuh.
i want peace for a sem.
at least.

this sem is almost over anyway.
please, we used to be friends yang sangat best.

forgive him anyway.even it is hard.
and please forgive her too.
dia tak bersalah.
and please, don't drag me into this problem.
i have nothing to do with it.

tolong jangan bergaduh lagi?


please.......

saya merayu.

cik mireya never begs.

this is deadly serious!

kamu siapa?

two weeks to go!

disastrous FINAL EXAM!!!

and heavenly holiday for few weeks. oh! i love holidayyy!!

so, since this sem is almost over. do i know all my friends? well, i love blog hopping. and mostly seniors blog. they knew their batchmates very well. at least they know the names.

but me?

hurm.let see.

in my course, mechanical engineering.
i know all the malay girls in my course. tiqa,dayah,amnah,nad,nabila,fiqa,elya *kami hanya lapan orang.durhhh*
the chinese, a few. jeremy, ricky, yau kin, claire, isabel.
the indians, a few also. jay, jaykanesh, kohela, yasha, satthiya yang kiot!
the malay boys, still a few yang i dunno.

macam mana lah kite boleh tak kenal?

kita kan satu course?

don't worry, four years to go kan rakan-rakan? *again.ayat jijiks yang faymes keluar dari saya*

itu course saya, batchmates yang laen?

saya taw banyakkk orang :P
(zeff,mahsyar,nas,nuar,nik male,nik female,don,skin,jah,mimi,sara,sarah,fara,farra,farah,fatin,basirah,haleeda,mai,izzah,nabila pe,nabila ce,lah,fared,ayu,shafeq,luq,yul,baidura,terry,lorenzo,mark,jeremy,) dan banyak lagi lah! banyak sangat nak list ;p

well.i easily remember names, and people. sangat beruntunglah jadi saya!
sometimes, i know people more than their coursemates do! quite sad because somehow people ingat i'm a stalker or even worse, diorang ingat saya psiko!

hey, yang psiko my coursemate lah. *ya know who* bukan saya!

tapi xpe kawan-kawan. insyALLAH, we'll be graduating together. sekarang baru foundation. mari mula berkenalan semula, mahu?

takkan nak tunggu final year kot?

i want you guys datang to my wedding nanti. ;p
soon.

nama saya mira.

course meche.

anda?

haha.matila gedikkk.

;p

kita kan manusia. :)

i have a friend, S *omg! somehow i asek substitute nama sebenar orang dengan huruf je kan?, heh, who cares?*

oke. back to the topic. S.

S is sweet. a sweetheart, a darling to everybody. i don't envy S. of course i don't. why would i? *haha.defensive.symptoms of jealousy*

i wonder. is S for real? i mean like, how many people on this very Earth is as nice as S? S smiles, never gets mad, S is everybody's favourite person! cud u believe me? i'm not exeggerating here oke. every gender love S. well, i like S too. since S is very nice and charming. buat menantu pon best ;p

but then, i saw S mad, angry, cursing, and keep complaining bout people in hidup dia. seems like S is not perfect like people always like to believe.

i saw S imperfection *oh, i'm good at looking to those imperfections!* well, i always look S as a fun person. S enjoyed diri dia very much. and so do people around S. the way S talks, the way S blogs, the way S walks, everything seems so perfect and i was just like,

"no wonder peeps love S. S memang such a darling!"

S don't curse like me.
S wears nice clothes.
S approachable.
S has lotsa gfs.
S has lotsa bfs.
everybody love S!

S blinded people. i know, S doesn't intend to do so. u're nice and kind, rite sweetheart? u don't do such thing kan? kan? S is naturally nice and totally a sweetheart. *i mean it tho*

until,
i saw S complaining. S looks very annoying then. S complains macam dia is the most perfect human being kat dunia nih.

darling, i know u baekk. and everybody loves you. tapi, jangan compare diri kamu dengan mereka. mereka bukan macam kamu. kamu kan hampir sempurna. :)

then,
i realize that NOBODY IS PERFECT.

even me myself.

well, kita kan manusia.

saya pon buat silap juga.

terima je.

sebab manusia itu insan.

pelupa.

a letter for M

M,

it's not that long that we've known each other. and, don't worry coz we got the whole few years ahead to get to know each other better.

but,
i don't think that's kinda good idea.

at first, i thought u are the nicest person (so far) i've meet here, in utp. u always be such a sweetheart to me. with all your help, your care, and the way u treat me, it just felt so good.

i almost thank God that i met you.

then, u prove me wrong.

it's not that i had a thing for you. it's really don't. please don't misunderstood my kindness or the way i treat you. i'm a friendly person. that's what friendly person do. okay, M?

M,

i hate it when u kept saying bout how good you are, about how naive you are, about how all these things that happened around you make you feel insecure and afraid that you gonna change to be worse than who you are now.

i also hate the fact that you always telling me that you not that good (even you just told me that you are a good person) or somehow to be jokingly asking me out.

that's not cool. and that's not funny either.

you always wanted to give me an impression. i realize that. well, it's not just me, all of my friends notice that. you don't do it purposely on me, but to other people also. what's your motives M? i don't understand.

seriously, i don't.

i've told you that you are a serious person. u don't know how to joke. u don't even know how to differentiate between jokes and serious matter. u bore me, M.

u denied that fact. instead, u give me all the facts that your friends told you that you're not serious but a funny person. u even had him told me directly to my face that you're not serious and you know how to jokes around.

and, you successfully annoyed me.

congratulations.

yesterday night, you told me that maybe you wouldn't talk to me. because you wanted to be yourself since i told you to change, grow up, and be a different person. you said that it's not that you're offended or what, it just that is the 'real' you.

what is the real you? 'M-who-don't-talk-to-mira' is the real you, isn't it?

admit it M, u have to change. u don't have to be a wannabe.

you don't listen to the music that we listen to? it's okay.
just stick to whatever music that you currently listening to.

you don't have your special someone to rely on to? it's okay.
just be cool with the fact that you're single and happily accept it and just wait for the right moment. don't bitch around saying you hate seeing the 'coupling scenery' at the cafe or what.

cause i know, deep down, you're jealous. and you look pathetic when you bitch bout it.

just accept that your friends have their own special partner, and you don't. just be happy with it. you're not gonna die alone and pathetic, believe me. just be happy.
okay?

M,

i'm sorry for the fact that i've been such a bitch to you lately. but that's me. i say what i wanna say. i've filtered it somehow. but,u still considered me bitching you even my besties told me that i'm too soft on you.

imagine if i just be me and hit you hard like a real slut? surely you gonna cry and hate me for the rest of your life.

but, i'm a human. and i know how a human feels when they're in your shoes.i'm gonna be soft on you.

cause i know that you're 'that' fragile.

happily be yourself, M. i'm here if you need anything. if you want me to console you, i'd be here ready to console you. any advice on appearance? i'd be right here telling what to wear and what's not. anything, i'm here.

just to help you. my friend.

not-so-sincere,
mireya.

saya seorang lesbian.

i wonder if i were a lesbian, what kind of lesbian i would be?

would i be the girl type, or the man type?

hurm.

i couldn't be the girl-type of course, coz i'm too loud. (i laugh like crazy oke.hell.)
i'm not that soft either cause i'm not typical malay girl yang sopan santun kan.
i'm not girlish enough eventhough i wear baju kurung and pinkish stuff. **da lame my frens x ckp i look boyish.ppl change.i realized i'm a girl neway.haha**
i don't wear dresses or wutsoeva that ladies-like outfit. if u saw me on those outfit people, that means that was bought by my mom. note : my mom shops for me :)

neway, i still look like a girl coz i wore heels and dammit, i like those sexy outfit! hahaha.i love handbags and i wear makeups too! **somehow, i'm a typical girl kan?**

but,

i couldn't be the man-type too.
i'm quite manja, and clingy too! **tadi baru gelak macam gaban dengan cik rosma coz i told her that i am manja!** note : cikrosma kata cik mireya perasan manja. but hey, i am oke!
i am penakut. even to go to the blackout toilet **fish u!** i have to mintak cik rosma teman.hoho.

still, i have those masculine quality since i curse a lot! **haha.all guys curse kan?well,who don't?** i like girls especially leng lui **again.who dont?** and, some other stuff that i better not to mention it here. ;p

then, i figure out something.

i could be both!!

but,

i better be straight then. i'm unique! ;P

sesungguhnya, saya masih seorang heteroseksual.

i don't get enough caffeine today.

sudi tak sape2 nak belanja saya?

;P

persahabatan itu indah

perhatian : i just found out, guna perkataan 'saya' itu sangat best lah! dan bahasa malaysia yang baku memang indah sekali! oh, bahasa Malaysia, i love you lah!

oke. hehehe. enough mengarut.

rumet saya hari ini telah buat sesuatu yang indah. dia hantar testi pada saya di friendster. terharu saya dengan kandungan testi itu. terima kaseh ye, cik rosma!

kredit : lagu hujan - tolong aku, yang buat rumet saya tergerak nak hantar testi yang sedemikian kepada saya.

lepas tu, saya mula teringat balik zaman sekolah saya. oh, rendunya saya dekat kawan-kawan semua! saya memang tak suka zaman saya di Beseri dulu. benci2! tapi, saya sayang kawan-kawan saya di sana. sheda, marleya, rosma (rumet ku dulu, kini, dan selamanya) dan lee. kawan saya kat sana memang tak ramai. sebab, bukan semua orang senang dengan saya. :)

tapi, kawan saya yang sedikit ini merupakan kawan yang terbaik. saya tak jemu dengan mereka!
saya teringat pulak kawan-kawan dekat dato' harun dulu. suha, amira azhar, syuhada, raihana, nabila, yatie, ijat, hatsun, teare, ainil. oh, saya baru teringat, saya banyak kawan di dato' harun! :)

mereka semua lain personaliti. sheda banyak cakap, marleya pulak suka mengemas, suha memang manusia gila, teare pulak sangat lah selamba. mereka semua lain2.

kemudian, kawan saya di utp pulak. cik tiqa, dan cik rosma. mereka sahabat baik saya. kami tiga dara pingitan! ;P

rakan-rakan satu course pon best. tapi, kita kena take time to know each other better la kan kawan2? *oh cik mireya gedik!*

oh ye. saya tak sebut nama lelaki pun kan? hahaha. bukan saya tak kawan dengan lelaki. saya suka kawan dengan mereka. tapi, lelaki-lelaki yang saya banyak jumpa sekarang adalah dari spesies mereka yang suka judge orang. dan banyak yang tak berani.

note : muka saya garang dan sombong. banyak yang menyampah takut dengan saya. hoho. :D

ramai rakan-rakan di sini kata saya nih serius dan susah nak didekati. yeke? tanya la rumet saya dan kawan sekegilaan saya. mereka kata saya gila!

saya memang tak reti sangat nak berkawan dengan orang. kecuali mereka satu kepala dengan saya. dan susah nak carik orang yang sekepala sebenarnya.

so, post kali ini khas buat kawan-kawan saya.dan kepada semua orang yang anggap saya kawan mereka. terima kaseh ye anda semua! terharu nih! hahaha :P

p/s : hahaha.memang best lah guna bahasa baku! cik kumbang! saya hampir ikot jejak langkah anda nih! *hari nih tahap endorfin dalam badan cik mireya agak tinggi kerana gian dan sangap sebab kurang kafein dalam badan*

tolong beri saya kafein

saya dah gila dah nie

tolong la saya